S1 E52 – Are You Just Fiddling With Fun Ideas or Actually Choosing Them? ๐Ÿ˜€

S1 E52 – Are You Just Fiddling With Fun Ideas or Actually Choosing Them? ๐Ÿ˜€


Hey welcome Christal Crawford show I’m Krystal Crawford. I Called this week’s episode. Are you fiddling with fun ideas? Are you actually choosing them? And as of this 10 seconds, I just walked in the door I’ve been at the Apple store all morning here in Atlanta, Georgia and Wow wow So this has been a rockin like 48 hours for me 48 64 72 hours this has been a life-changing set of days for me and Today’s topic. Hi, Nydia. Today’s topic came out of a whole boatload of new awareness about Ideas and choice and what it actually takes to institute things. Hi Katerina I sleep you guys are puffing on fast. Hi Hi Maxine and So so are you feeling with fun ideas or are you actually choosing them? Okay. Hi, Celine. Hi Annette. So I Have been in Georgia With Stephanie for the last I don’t even feel like two years. That’s a great way probably last couple weeks and When we get together even when we’re long-distance what when we’re long-distance we create a lot and when we get together in person we create ridiculous amounts and what I mean by that is like We I mean all the things all the ways that you can create whether that’s energetically or you know, actually actualizing ideas It’s all the things so the last honestly since I’ve been here the last two weeks have just been like a firehose of ideas and things and questions and Alexandra hi Madeline That that that can be right, okay, so Thing one thing too I started taking this class with Katy Rubin a writing class of Katy Rubin If anybody doesn’t know Katy go google her go find her on Facebook. She’s a comic and a writer and a Sanna Stick and all the fun stuff and she’s doing a writing class. So I am actually Taking a class on how to write stand-up comedy right now Which is great so the reason I did the topic of this class the way that I did is because I had this epiphany the other day that A choosing coach. I need to call myself that also That so I’m taking this class for writing right and I wake up the next I’m in the class. It’s a Wednesday night It’s a three-hour class and there we’re in class right now and they say a lot of us do this, right? We choose classes and we go take things for things and then we don’t necessarily use the stuff So I’m like well, you know and so as a choosing coach I’m like coaching people on well you go to choose you got to Institute stuff from blah blah blah Anyway, I am taking this class and the next morning I wake up and you know Katie’s awesome she can actualize stuff right she can write stuff and get stuff into the world and I can – I just haven’t never chosen that when it comes to writing or stand-up comedy or any of those things. So Again was the end of class? Go through the three hours go to sleep that night Wake up the next morning And I’m going about my day and I’m realizing that I took a class and I didn’t I have not yet actually Chosen to write the stuff. Not really. I chose the class. I paid for the class. I went to the class I was in the class. I had the conversation about choosing the stuff. Welcome to the next morning realized I hadn’t actually chosen this stuff. Now. How did I know? I hadn’t I got yet. I had no actual intention of writing anything I know I know there was no even I didn’t put it in my calendar It wasn’t in my awareness like when it comes to actualizing things You actually have to like put pen to paper or you know Put fingers to keyboard or put pans on clay or something like when it comes to making stuff go there’s stuff required to do and So I went through that day and I’m like am I actually gonna choose this? Seems a little crazy, right? Cuz I could see it. I’m in the class. I’m doing the thing and I just sit with my men I had to stay with myself for I don’t know an hour and I was like, huh? I really don’t want to actually choose this, you know, and I could come up with all kinds of stories why and things and things and I mean listen writing stand-up comedy is not for the faint of Not for the ball list You’ve got to put your ideas through this structure put them out the other side and then find out you don’t actually really know what you’re doing really and then your ideas that you Think are funny are not necessarily funny when you put them through the structure So it’s like, you know, it makes you look at and it makes you practice stuff tea right now. You’re probably not that good at So so that was kind of moment number one as I was sort of Mulling all of that and looking at it and all that stuff. Hi Mia. I Was also like during the day and throughout my days like I’ve just been you know carrying on with Stephanie Seriously, we have so many conversations. We’re creating 22 businesses right now. I’m not even kidding. You just keep your eyes peeled for everything and so I Wake up another morning and I just I got I got tugged to a bookshelf. Now my body does this hi Eva? My body will pull me into bookstores and pull me through the bookstore until it gets me to the book that I am supposed to Hi Dale Have supposed to be reading so I got pulled to a book bookshelf looked on the bookshelf I found this book called love is a verb love No life life is a verb So it’s a really beautiful book like it’s kind of oversized and you open it up and it’s all in color and it’s got these 37 days of exercises and things and so I mean I I have lots of books But I open this up and I open it up to chapter like I don’t know 20. Hi, Jeanette and The whole chapter is about mud balls Now she tells the story is way better than I’m about to tell you but essentially mud balls are an ancient Japanese art That and they are objects. They’re mud bog. They’re mud balls made of common dirt and then coated and covered with silt and Polished until they become these really really shiny Common everyday objects now the story was about how a teacher was teaching this This art has a has a beautiful Japanese name by the way, but in English, that’s my bolts And this this guy was teaching this class on how to make these No. No, this was a pottery class I’m getting my two things confused whatever there was a pottery teacher and they’re in the same chapter and we talked about my balls I can and so this pottery teacher gave his divided his class into two and To half the class. He said you’re gonna be graded on the quantity of Pottery that you create. So basically it doesn’t matter what it looks like. It doesn’t matter how or what or whatever you do You’re me graded on the quantity and to the other half of the class. He said you’re gonna be graded on the quality Of the pottery you create so you can only do one piece and you’re gonna be graded on the quality the people that ended up creating the best Quality pottery were the people that were being graded on quantity Why and then the people that were being graded on quality? Actually got stuck in Trying to figure out how to make the perfect piece Quality people actually ended up getting the perfect piece. Hi Anita Quantity people got didn’t got stuck on all the perfection and so I started and so then it moved into like this This story about the mud balls So the thing about mud balls is that when you are first learning how to do this ancient Japanese art? Which uses common dirt that you can find in your backyard and you start creating these mud balls Your first mud balls are really really like Malformed and you know rocky and not that great But what happens in this is the process of making them becomes this really meditative Being state and So there’s more to it than just the end product there’s the whole process of it and not only that but like in the as you are going through this process you end up really treasuring the first few that you make But as you keep making them they get better and better and better and they end up being these really shiny Objects that you can love and have around the house and whatever So it’s kind of a three-pronged three three prong thing that I’m talking about Easy for me to say hi stuff. Hi Laurie, which is that? One I realized that Some of the stuff that I’d been talking about for years wanting to do pottery Stand-up comedy writing was stuff that I never had any intention of actually choosing They were stuff that was gonna stay fun ideas thing number two Part of what? It kept me from choosing him was the story that if I did them I wanted it to be perfect And I knew it was gonna be perfect. And so I wasn’t gonna do them Thing three was I really really really hadn’t given any love any value any whatever to the process of it all like I had dropped the awareness of what the process of creating the thing actually gifts to you which is awareness and awareness and awareness Glad you’re here too, Laurie so So so I’ve been really really Really playing with and Stephanie’s been a huge influence I’ve been really playing with actually choosing the things that I’ve been saying I want to do and actually choosing stand-up comedy right now looks up looks like getting up every day and writing at least One joke putting it through the thing that you and this was like Katie says she’s like you got it Here’s the three-step thing to writing a joke You got to put all your ideas through this three-step thing and it’s gonna drive you crazy and a lot of people quit at this Stage because it feels hard It’s not as fun as when you’re like in your head and everything. You’re thinking is making you laugh that stuff That makes you laugh in your head is not Necessarily the stuff that’s gonna make people laugh onstage And so trust me when I tell you to put all of your ideas through the structure because if you can get through the structure And you can get them out on the other side then you can play with them So right now writing comedy is sort of fun, but it’s also kind of hard Because I don’t totally get it yet, right I’m still like and I say her really loosely like it’s actually still really fun But hard in the way that like I’m not good at it yet. I don’t naturally just like come up with an idea and You know, hi barb and just like let it flood it through the process. Yeah, right like it’s still kind of labored I’m still in the packing process of like learning how to form a circular mud ball Okay So what about what am I getting out of it? The first thing I’m getting out of it is I’m starting to listen to myself differently So I also bought this book and I’ve because I was missing some information So there’s this whole really cool book on writing comedy and I bought it One of the things that you do when you’re writing comedy is you listen to yourself She’s like listen to the things that make you laugh. What was it about that that made you laugh? What was was that the premise was that the why was that the true which part of the thing was that thing write it down? Carry something with you all the time write down that thing write down the idea write down What made you laugh write down the the context? and then come back to that when you’re actually writing write down whether it’s a joke or a sitcom or a thing because Comedy writers can actually write all kinds of things so they can write stand-up they can write You know, I can’t even think of all of them a sitcoms and movies and antennae. There’s a whole bunch of things So write it down. What is it? So I read the thing. I’m where I’m write. I wrote some really bad jokes that morning. I went downstairs I had coffee It’s Stephanie and I had a little banter and something funny came out. I was like, oh my god I never would have heard that if I hadn’t unlike read that thing, so I went and wrote it down I got a thing out of it So but it’s in that beginning process right now and I one of the things I really got this week is how many times I Just don’t choose To move forward into the things that ping me sometimes I find myself saying because I am also in one of those phases right now Where I get I go through I don’t know every three months every six months where every single thing is undefined Right now I don’t recognize I don’t recognize the planet that I’m on at the moment, you know I don’t have anybody that can move forward for me and show me how to create my life how to create my business now and That’s always true. But sometimes that become more true and Yesterday I really woke up In and amongst all of this other fun creation stuff. I really woke up like oh my god. I this is too much It’s just too much. It’s just wanting to leave my life wanting to leave this house when I delete wanting to leave really and um that energy have been aware of that energy with a lot of people lately and I’ve had a lot of people say yeah that’s been really up for me and the thing is with Everything that I want to create with everything that you want to create is there there is nobody that’s done it before you Can find things that look similar you can find hints of it You can you know I have this whole bag of essential oils and Sometimes I’ll just go in and open all the caps and one of them will be more relevant than another oil at the time So you can have whiffs of what it is you’re creating there is nobody to give you a manual for what it is you’re creating in the world and There’s nobody that’s going to be able to tell you or affirm to you that Yeah, yeah. Yeah, that’s so you I mean you may have some really great friends in your court and people that have your back that are like Yeah, like that recognize the energy when it hits and it’s like oh my god. Yeah that and at the end of the day You are the one. Yeah, I’m the one that’s actual izing this set of energies I’m aware of this future that I’m aware of this now that I’m aware of right and One of the things I find with me pretty consistently is that the things I avoid choosing the most are usually the things that are going to create the most space create the most possibility to create the most happiness in my life and I will avoid them like the plague like I won’t choose those things like they also I don’t have a good Y but they also have like the most possibility for judgment or you know, whatever I’ve decided is going to occur when I choose those things and And they light me up more than any other things I have a series of things right now that just light me up like crazy Most of them are standing in front of people either being funny speaking preaching singing, you know Guess what show the things that I save for video now, I love video. I love connecting with you guys this way And there’s just something different about being in front of live people. So guess which are the things that I avoid the most? For the live people. So I Really I know that’s kind of a like a thunderstorm of stuff But I wanted to invite you to look at your world and look at your things. Sometimes when I find myself saying I Don’t know what to choose and that I could easily say that right now. I don’t know what to choose. I don’t Nothing’s popping. That’s another thing. I’ll hear myself saying nothing’s popping when I truly look into my world It’s I would say probably never that. Nothing’s popping What may be more true is that the things that are popping are the things that I haven’t really wanted to do Meaning but not cuz I don’t want to do them like oh my god, they’re heavy like they scare the shit out of me which is actually excitement they scare sighted about all the things that I truly want to do and I Haven’t ever really chosen them. You know, I haven’t ever really chosen to do stand-up comedy or even to write it I haven’t actually chosen to go to a pottery class. I keep talking about it. I haven’t actually chosen to paint. I haven’t chosen to Whatever else I’m choosing right now I haven’t chosen to fully full-on write a book, right like actually get it published and take it to that actualization I haven’t chosen those things and I could come up with stories all day long about why but I just haven’t and So there’s a lot of my life where I’ve kind of stayed in these one or two or three really comfortable grooves, right? Like even for me like facilitating online is another comfortable group. It’s awesome. I love it and it’s comfortable now I know how to do it. I know how to do videos. I know how to do classes I know how to do all that so the stuff now as I’m asking for more is drawing me out of that into more and then more shows up and I’m like Great. Ah, don’t make me choose it and who’s making me nobody ain’t me? You know, maybe sometimes not really He’s making me So I just want to invite you to look at your universe of like what have you been asking for What’s tugging you that you can’t explain? You can’t logic can’t justify to anybody else What what if you chose it would give you just more awareness? and so that’s the thing about these things like choosing the right stand up choosing to write a book choosing to this and that I’m gonna get awareness and the thing is Nothing was linear. Y’all nothing. The universe doesn’t work linear. You’re not linear I don’t know what I’m gonna get out of going to do a pottery class I don’t know what awareness I’m gonna get as my hands are slipping and sliding off that clay and I crush pots Don’t know. I know I’m gonna crush pots if it even gets to the pop phase, right? What am I I don’t know yet. I don’t know if I’m even going to the class for the pottery itself I don’t know what I’m writing stand-up for right now. I May be to perform it could be we’ll find out I don’t We don’t None of that is logical. It’s just yes, that’s that yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes And that’s the thing with your fun ideas if you start saying yes, and you start taking the steps to actualize them, you know If you’ve said yes to being a bars facilitator What are all the different steps that you could take to actualize being a bars facilitator if nobody knows you exist? Okay, what can you do to change that? How many people can you talk to how many different ways can you do it? What questions can you ask? What what can you ask for that could just show up for you? And in addition to asking what things can you do? What what everyday writing for a bit writing three jokes or bit every day talking to six people? You know just being interested in them. If you are choosing to be a certified facilitator What what’s things can you choose that would actualize that? Well, what can you talk to? What can you create, you know? so and I know this is this is not a new conversation per se but it’s this new level of awareness that For the things that I’ve there’s a lot of things in my world that I’ve kind of kept I haven’t really acknowledged that I’ve kept in the realm of fantasy if I’m honest Where it’s been they’ve been fun examples or fun things to talk about or they make they make me look really brave But I haven’t actually Chosen them chosen to to do them to at least head in that direction Right because it’s only the heading in that direction. That’s actually gonna give me any awareness I’m never you know, if stand up always stays a conversation for me I’ll never actually know what I could have gotten or what I could get out of that I won’t have the awareness of actually choosing to put myself on the dating side going out with the guy, right? I won’t have that awareness. I’ll just have a really really fun. Oh, yeah, that’ll be really great conversation and And that all of that that this whole episode ties into the commitment to your life and that was kind of prong number four of this whole conversation for me that I had an awareness of yesterday of like God I was simultaneously mad at myself. I’m gonna be honest and Revelatory that Holy shit, number one. I’ve really left the creation of my life in other people’s hands Who’s who which people I thought even I don’t even know if I could fully tell you but definitely not my hands and that Yesterday especially I was like fuck that has got to change, you know And of course that was a judgment with it not I love allowance, but not perfect. I didn’t have a lot of allowance for that and Mixed with that was this awareness of like god It’s time to truly like commit to my life, what does that mean? All the things that means all the things it means the play of discovering what that even is It means the play of discovering in things that I don’t know yet, right? They’re actually choosing and the adventure of living And I actually probably to two or three months ago when it before I went on the road. I did I had to asks And I just acknowledged yesterday. What would it be like to Really choose ask and receive and what would it be like to really choose the adventure of living? Guess was showing up both so I haven’t yet done a show yet on ask and receive because I’m still really beginning to play with it, but that Adventure of living what’s an adventure? You don’t know what’s around the other corner? You don’t know what’s going to either you get to go on an adventure and discover all kinds of things discover Where you get blisters discover where your bad discover where your great discover discover? All right, you get to discover. I Cannot tell you how much of my life I have prevented myself from discovering in a lot of areas. Why? Oh, don’t get me started. I could tell you all the stories, but now it doesn’t matter. I enjoy it. Hi, Kathy It is just what do I want to choose now? so I really just I think I’m gonna shut up about it cuz like there’s I could just keep Babbling but like really wanted to invite you to look at your life and hi Susanna and go Hey, where am I just not choosing to move forward on this like if I’m talking about this thing? But I haven’t actually made any steps for it. What steps can I start to make just to start to see? Stuff. I don’t want to say just assert to see what’s possible, but you’re gonna generate what’s possible You’re going to choose what’s possible but every choice you make opens up new possibilities, right? So when you make a step in that direction, no matter what that is Let’s say you want to get out of your job what steps could you actually take to move in that direction to get more awareness? because that opens more doors more possibilities every single choice you make does that and Without those choices those possibilities can’t show up So you’re invited to the adventure of living called your life You’re in it and you’re the creator of it and you get to Choose the level of your adventure and I say level just because some of us liked even yesterday I was like Maybe I’ll go back to being a little more defined cuz that was a little more comfortable for me. You can still do that That’s not wrong because consciousness includes everything and judge is nothing. So you get to like control everything Is there anything that you would like to be a little more out of control? tell me if you want things a little more out of control just head in a direction that you haven’t yet chosen into and Find stuff out. Okay If you liked this, please share it so other people can find it. Thank you so much this concludes one year and I’m going to say conclude loosely of This show so starting next week we start year two And I will tell you that when I first started the show, I didn’t think I could come up with a talk Topic every week turns out I can I wonder what you’re capable of share it. Love it like it. I love you I’ll see you next week

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